[spangy]

I am so sorry to hear this sad news Heinz ... My Halina passed from Cancer Jan. 5th 2017.
She was my true soulmate and her passing devastated me even though we knew it was coming.
I was and still am a spiritual man but her passing nearly destroyed my faith. I was so angry that I cursed at our creator and questioned ever thing I believed in ... my friends stood by me on 'suicide watch' fearing that I wasn't going to survive it. The only reason I did not carry out that which would have ended my pain was knowing that that is NOT what Halina would have wanted ... you must do the same.

Cancer is a despicable horrific disease ... my thoughts and prayers are with you and yours Heinz.
This will change you Heinz but remember this too shall pass.
You will never forget this time, it is the hardest lesson we must learn as humans.
If you need an ear I am here to help if I can.